Today’s Topic: What our impulses say about us
It’s interesting, to say the least, that after living over a quarter of a century in the world I often find myself reflecting on my own character. Am I a good person? Do I do the right thing whenever I can? What exactly has shaped me to be the person I am today? I have a never-ending list of questions about my personality and genuine self that I fear I might not get answers to. Yet, asking these questions and evaluating myself are all part of growing and learning.
One of the simplest factors I’ve learned to assess about my own self analysis has been my impulses, as well as the impulses of those around me. By taking a closer look at what our impulses mean, I’m starting to get a better idea about my own psyche and what defines me as a person.
I have the impulse to fight when confronted with negative opinions or frightening situations. There are times when the impulse to run away might be present, but the need to strike back against something that upsets or frightens me is generally more powerful than the feeling in my legs that’s trying to prompt me to run. This isn’t always necessarily a good trait, as it means I don’t allow others enough time to explain themselves after they’ve said something negative before I’m already on the attack. It’s something I’ve been learning to train myself to avoid, but it’s an impulse nonetheless.
I also have the impulse to buy items based off of emotion. If I’m stressed or worried, I won’t buy much and will generally stick to the necessities as my thoughts are usually, “Do you need this? No? Don’t buy it.” Yet, when I’m happy and walking on clouds, I’ll think, “This looks nice! This looks like fun! This looks delicious! Let’s take the lot!” And suddenly I’ve got a lot of things in my shopping bag than I really need at the moment.
I’m a creature of comfort; that much is true. I do what makes me feel happiest, whether that’s staying alone in my room (well, as alone as one can be with a cat that needs constant attention) for days on end or basking in the comfort of time spent with friends. I’m a social creature that’s stubborn and headstrong, but also loyal and responsible. I know my weaknesses and I work on them when I can, but I wouldn’t have a clue what to work on without understanding how my impulses reflect my personality.
It’s okay if you realize your impulses don’t point to having the character traits you desire to have; people can change, grow, and develop into better human beings than they were before. Keep trying, keep learning, and always strive to better yourself. If you’re looking for a place to start the self evaluation, try assessing your own impulses and see what they say about you as a person.